i miss this quiet time in the middle of the night. where it's just me, the silence and the darkness. it is a good time indeed.

okay, i can't quite find a video that allows me to embed it here, but please go watch this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HShpoVtjzko

i don't know if it was the song, or the choreography, or the pure raw emotion radiating from alex and allison, but the tears just wouldn't stop throughout the whole thing. it was so good. it takes my breath away. the beauty and the pain. it was wonderful.

i wish i was in the middle east. i wish i was part of it. i wish i was making a bigger difference in this world.

cynical people leave a really bitter taste in my mouth. i will get there. i swear i will. the fact that i'm really happy where i am now doesn't deter me from that. hell i'm choosing the treacherous rocky mountain pass that leads to god knows where, over the smooth pavement that leads to a minimum level of 'success' or comfort. i hope i make it through the next few years with this thought intact.